Where Are We Now...

I am taking fantasy characters and bringing them into a realistic timetable - this has been hard on the way i have to write - so this is challenging for me, but very rewarding.

I had to stop writing because my heart was under too much pressure from the trauma that their stories were bringing to the top. Their stories will have a big impact one day if it is allowed to be published, that is if I write them and learn how to do it with Daddy’s hand holding my pen through the internet of my brain, spirit and body.

Throughout the time I wasn’t writing, I was working towards coming back. I watched a lot of Korean romance dramas, Japanese ones as well, gone on to chat rooms and chat sites to see what is available, and how these characters would communicate, and how their company would stand out, etc. There has been a few connections, many of which have helped me learn how to discern, chat and talk to men - or as being them - for Haulani and Alain’s sakes. Have been watching a lot of YouTube in regards to African American history and even some reaction clips about the women and people of today. I still want to join something like Craigslist or somewhere where a lot of people are available to read my most recent idea - a most wanted list in which i ask for help from those who read it if they know of anyone, or I can be emailed, that fulfills the criteria of whom i’m looking to interact with and get an idea about for different cultures and characters. I don’t need any more when it comes to the main three, but i am more than likely to bring up other cultures and would like to create the realistic interactions/reactions and responses these guys and girls would do.

Presently: Have just done a big tidying up of my flat/apartment and would love to keep it that way. Have begun - 3 weeks in now - a full-time study course in Early Childhood Education and am praying that the organisation skills required to keep on top of that will help me in other areas. I have no idea which house of God i’m to attend that will line up with what God has in store for me. I have found myself coming back to a heart that wants to be romanced by heaven - Jesus - because I have been finding that i can’t find the way that He does it in the men that are found in those same chat rooms. Money has gotten tighter, as I was expecting to get the same as what i was having on the welfare system - instead i’m getting enough without any thrill money - as in we were hoping to go around to some of the attractions to have family memories - but God is being a good Father and providing other opportunities. I have also taken a more healthier approach to eating, and living in general, and have decided that my faith is a Catch John 3:16 moment.